New....undiscovered....

I have entered into a time in my life where all that I thought or based values on had to change. I had to discover new ideas about what it means to be me. I didn't have a make over or change my style, or start following another religion. What I did do is discover something in me that was hidden, something deep inside me that was in need of a change. I discovered that I was strong, that I needed something more than I had settled on. I discovered that if I really needed to I could pick myself up...dust myself off...tell myself I was worth it...I was worth more! I am beautiful, I am smart, my opinion matters, and I gosh darn it could build a rock wall. Not any rock wall, but a wall that was strong with many layers. With each rock I laid, I placed a feeling, a value, a misconception, a hurt, a desire not fulfilled, all the garbage I wanted to unload from my soul. Instead of being unsightly, it was beautiful, even the rough edges, the dirt, the unevenness...this was a reflection of me. Even though I felt so bad inside, so unloved, so wrong, what had come out of me was wonderful. I never felt better...Even though I am going through a rough patch in life I know that what ever I put my hands to and work hard for it will work out. Maybe not what I expect....but what is supposed to be....